Another day of pain I try to keep my mind off it but sometimes it is just too bad Stress from the holidays and stress over everything makes it worse.  Monday is a day I dread people say after 26 years i should be "over it"  but how do you get over the loss of a baby.  You think what would she have done with her life would she be married have children of her own.  In college happy.  So many questions without answers .  Yes I have three children that I love with all my heart but I have 4 one who I only held for 5 minutes before they whisked her away.  9" long weighing 9 ounces but still she was strong enough to live for 1 and 1/2 hours I named her Valycia Lynn after my grandfather and he has loved her in heaven all these years now she has many family members loving her but not her mom.